so brilliant me! we must go north tomorrow so see my folks, who will then return with us south and stay two nights. the house is a disaster, a mild one but still ... its just barely not tidy enough for house guests. as i mentioned in my previous post: it is time to kick. what goes with a messy house and time to kick? speed!!
my brainium decided it would be brililant to get a little bag of speed last night. i envisioned myself cleaning up the house with the drive and attention to detail that only comes with using speed. i am not a fan of speed meth chrystal crank ice glass whathaveyou. i am not one bit of a fan. so i thought perfect! its time to kick! and when i do speed i spend hours introspective and always come to the conclusion that i want my life to have value and that using takes value away from my life (at this point - 10 years ago that was not the case as what Ive learned about myself by having a habit is invaluable. Ive learned more about myself and the world by getting a habit than by getting my degree from college.) Plus my husband turns into a wonderful loving attentive partner when on speed.
Well i have to jet but let me sum it up: the house is not clean. my husband played poker on the phone for 9 hours. and because we have the 7 hour drive tomorrow we have to sleep tonight which means we ended up using smack anyway. but i took a quarter of a sub so i should be set tomorrow to continue kicking comfortably.
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