dude. cant believe it has already been four days, four FULL fucking days, without junk. wednesday, thursday, friday, saturday. four fucking days.
tuesday we used around noon and a bit later, maybe 4pm. our habit, fairly substantial this round. i certainly would have overdosed on the amount Ive been doing in a shot if this was any other year out of the last decade. about .2g of high quality ($80-$100 a g heroin) or a gram and a half of shitcrap quality tar ($30-$40 a g) PER issue. one or two issues a day. or three issues. and a rinse. of course. so that was our habit. doing anything less i wouldnt feel; doing half the above described amounts would maybe *maybe* get me well for a few hours.
the kick:
tuesday night my husband and i each swallow half of a suboxone (4mg). the important part. the key word in the above sentence: *swallow*. note, we are swallowing the half of a suboxone only a few hours after using. we aren't even sick yet; fuck, we aren't even done being high for the most part ... just out of the nod and ready for bed. obviously we sleep like babies.
wednesday morning we each take another half, swallowed. i always swallow the suboxone so that the naloxone doesnt work and i dont have to worry about being thrown into withdrawals. sometimes if im itchy and its been a few days Ill let it dissolve just to help with the disuasion from getting high. we took another half each that afternoon and another before bed. this night i dont sleep right thru. i wake up. early, like before midnight. and then wake up again around 230am or so. i take another half around 4am maybe. go to a 6am 12-step meeting. my husband sleeps thru the night tho; only gets up once to piss. and its not like i was restless, sweaty, all that shit. i feel physically fine i just cant fucking sleep.
thursday afternoon take another half. we both take a quarter (2mg) before bed thursday night. we both sleep like babies.
friday. well fuck. what do you know. we dont take anything and feel fine the whole fucking day. brilliant.
saturday (today) we took a quarter around noon just because we thought that we might maybe possibly feel just slightly "ehh". as far as Im concerned the kick is done, Im peeing clear, uncloudy piss.
the only real sideaffect i felt during this kick was low energy, and a bit of insomnia (which my darling didnt experience - he did feel low on energy).
we'd been strung out since february or so ... think we had 7 days at once point. maybe 3 days on about 2-3 occassions. just incase youre thinking "no fucking way these people couldnt have had a habit and kicked so goddamn EASILY what the fuck?!" truth is i have been taking suboxone on and off for a little over 5 years (since the end of 2007). my husband has been taking it off and on for 2 years (since aug 2010 tho we were clean aug 2010-june 2011). i love suboxone. for the most part it lets me regulate my habit so that its never out of control. ive had job since ive had my scrip. a roof over my head. no arrests. before that i was arrested 9 times in the course a year. homeless. shoplifting. unemployable.
anyways good luck to all. if you have any questions do enquire and Ill give you the best answer Ive got from my experience. xoxo
